I am sitting here listening to worship music and before I know it I'm crying out to God.
Once upon a time this would have meant actually wallowing in self-pity and asking God WHY?! Why didn't I have more? Why did I feel so lonely? Why wasn't God talking to me?
I still have the option of asking God why? There are still things I need or want. Sometimes I do still get lonely. Sometimes I still get rather confused about what God is saying!
But I've learnt there are some better questions to ask God,
like "who?" - who needs me today? Who needs my prayers? Who could I connect with?
or "what?" - what, God, do you want me to do?
The main difference here, of course, is that one appoach is negative while the other is positive; one focuses on self while the other focuses on others. Don't get me wrong I like naval gazing as much as the next girl, probably more so given my interest in psychology and what makes us unique... but I am constantly reminded by people and circumstance that the most important thing in my life is people.
My friends mean the world to me and tonight I am crying out for them.
